Away from everybody
Away from everything
If you can't stand the way this place is
Take, yourself to higher places"
"Rise" - Three Days Grace
I have had this quote in my head for the better part of the past week and a half, trying to get myself out of a funk. I am a person who suffers from a continuous struggle with two sides of a metaphorical coin that reflects the extremes of manic and depressive mindsets. There was a point in my life where the struggle was a constant losing war, bouncing between breaking out in sobbing tears and laughing and wanting to take on the world (even fly!) within minutes, if not seconds of each other.
This is even further perpetuated by the fact that I am acutely aware that I am in fact different to an extreme in terms of my extreme views of optimism and pessimism. Those who know me very well know that I am an oddity in the extreme. I am often times reminded how I am one of the few, if not the only person they know who they can trust without a question, and am genuinely kind, compassionate, and understanding.
So much of an oddity in fact, that many people view me as someone with ulterior motives. The true fact of my "ulterior motive" is the fact that I simply just want to be accepted. Growing up with a kind heart, I am often taken advantage of, treated with disregard or even outright fear, or obsessed over as being the only person on the face of the planet to give a neglected heart due appreciation and insightful support. My life, in this regard, is one of extremes.
Over the course of my life, I have tried to come to terms with this unique piece of myself. With a cyclical mind comes an overly analytically view of the world, a tool my mind has established to help cope with the often negative side-affects of this optimistic and loving attitude. This has only further distanced myself with many as I sometimes look too much into situations that are not always as extreme as people may lead me to believe.
As a man who has found someone to finally confide in and trust just as much as they trust me (who I am forever thankful of and beyond lucky to have found), I have been able to finally start piecing things together, acquire a good grasp of, and gain pristine awareness of how my mind functions. And in this past week, with me unable to use my normal physical outlets I had to really come to terms with emotions that have remained repressed or distanced from otherwise.
The above quote again comes to mind:
"If you can't stand the way this place is Take, yourself to higher places"And it is within these words that I have somewhat been able to start accepting whatever it is that has been bugging me. A kind heart simply must seek a higher power for a view of acceptance and some semblance of solace, as negativity is sewn into the very fabric of life. Every faith in existence speaks of this to some degree, that the temptation of sin can be found in everything. As the saying goes, one must find the Silver Lining in Stormy Skies if they are to find happiness.
Now I am not one who really advocates one religion or spiritual point of view over another. I am someone who has sought to seek peace and compassion with one's fellow man for a long time, even at the expense of my own personal peace. And with that, I find that I can often times speak on the same level as any Faith to which I speak with, a trait that I have admired in the likes of the Dalai Lama, Ghandi, Martin Luther King, and religious icons such as Buddha, Jesus Christ, and any spiritual guide of the Hindu persuasion. These people acted on faith, and had Love, Compassion, and Acceptance at the very core of their beliefs above all else.
And as I look into their histories, I often find that they ran the same course as those typical of a kind heart. They were leaders who made significant changes in our world in the name of their love for all humankind. A true higher place indeed.
Compassion within Muses DiceThis blog is somewhat of a reflection of my connection with this higher power, or if anything, a higher purpose. While I attempt to channel the infinite creative potential of my imagination, I also seek to find ways of uniting like-minded individuals and share with them a comfortable medium of sharing creative ideas. There are those who would say it is all but a childish fantasy, though if anything it is our youth to which many of us have lost touch with and in this youth we have total and undeniable innocence. A level of true peace, compassion, and love for all things.
My Muse, or rather for purposes of this blog, my Dices Muse, is that one source of inspiration and source of Faith that I can look to in order to know that tomorrow will bring new opportunities and new dreams to which to fulfill. And with the help of my growing network of supportive friends and family, I will continue to selflessly spread around my struggled attempts of optimism, thanks, and understand to all of those who are willing to listen.
My only motive is that the action is returned in kind, in whatever way they are willing to share it. Acceptance will be shared, and if the time and effort is shared, a strong friendship may grow. And despite my sense of feeling lonely in a world filled with selfish corruption, fear-mongering, and manipulative propaganda... I will always be reminded that there is still a glimpse of selfless kindness, hopeful inspirations, and undeniably wise insight in all who are willing to embrace such virtuous traits.
Thank you to all who have at least taken the time to read up on this post, as it is a very core element of my spiritual view. If you are interested to share, what are some of your own views on how to cope with the world? What helps to bring you Faith, Peace, and Harmony in your family, friends, and strangers alike?